meltdown

by white horse

i followed the black and yellow lines
that led me to my allergy

that once led me to more fear
then i ever thought i could stand

and i always thought if you could do one thing
perfectly
no one would ever be able to take that away.
for more then a weekend or two.

and i was warned about those pills
how they could be harsh on my stomach
i would rather be torn apart inside then out
that way no one could see my pain

and i tried to stay soo upbeat on a bed
where god knows who was on before
and i wanted to lay down
fall asleep
and dissappear