Ruse

<>by: crosswise

I look at myself
And the person I have become
The person you have made me
And see that is all forgotten

<>You left my life
For reasons unclear
When every memory I have of you
Still seems so near <>

I grasp onto each day
When I have you in my life
Because now all you see in me
Is mistakes and my wasted life <>

Now I cry to drown out my sorrows
Drink to forget tomorrow
And smoke to become numb to the pain you make me feel