a soft poem with hard thoughts

by line dry only

we could just be friends
but that'd lead us to heartbreak
why did we end our friendship in the first place?
you're so far away, i don't know who you are
but i feel messy and insincere
i want to be soft
and hold hands with someone
grab myself a coke
and drink through a cold straw
sit under a shady oak tree
on a sunny summer's day
but those days are all gone
when we decided to feel our pain
whoever told you that we could follow our dreams
i don't know why they'd give you false hope about me
whoever made you feel like you were truly in love
it's all because of me
it's all because of me
why did i break your heart, when you're so far away
why do i feel so complicated with not much to say
don't cry with those salty filled tears
the ocean level's going down so much now
and i know where it leads so
we could just be friends
but i want to feel messy
and no more insincerity
i want to be softly held
in the arms of your heart
but too many mushy love poems
written about you to no one that i know of

i want to be soft
and hold hands with someone
grab myself a coke
and drink through a cold straw
sit under a shady oak tree
on a sunny summer's day

but you're nowhere to be seen
and i can't find anyone left here with me

where are you, my
unacquainted - soft and simple - holding me in dreams - lover?