an attempt to tip the scales

losing what i love in a mess of details

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Reading Over My Black History Class Notebook

Amy Lipman

Out With Mark

As you ate your cherry pie that
Nobody wanted you to have because
You are a big boy now, and
Need to have muscles and stretch your legs
You smiled and laughed and your river of numbers
Was relieved by a dam, our father's hand

Grandma whispered right past your nose
That you are a tragedy, oh what a shame
I boiled He is still with us, knows how to smile
Disappointed, young widow, grey mother
Just keep quiet and
Love your grandson
His gated bank of sin,
All sweet submergence
Trapped under brown eyes
Big hands and chains


Sweet Tongues

Why would you try
To teach someone French
In a place far from Paris
Where they don't serve up spit
With their tongue or lips
Those people were born wrapped in sugar

It storms, she misspoke
She made something pretty
The woman in red says "make something real"
She'll rip out her tongue and
Tie it to the train tracks and
Laugh,
And she'll
Laugh
Over mispronunciations

Why would you try to teach someone something
They'll never use outside of your mouth
They'll walk the same way as their arms always told them
Without all our words we are unkind physics
I have been lucky
I learn new words from him
Born of his mouth
Rise up in mine

The woman in red at the cafe I eat at
Was pretty enough but she's never been kissed
I know that because I asked her with looks
And she couldn't look back
And she couldn't laugh

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

why should you have to ask permission to sleep in your own bed?

erin

-

every night that I stand next to the bed
I make every morning
for appearances only
I feel tired.

I smooth down the sheets
and adjust the pillows carefully
so you will be as comfortable
as possible

to then march down the stairs
blanketed in a silence
that is not defeaning
in its unyielding strength
but pathetic in its defeat.
it is a silence as vacant
as the weight of
every empty room

and I take my place
on the couch
to fix my eyes on the ceiling
and imagine
that I can hear the steady rhythm
of your breathing,
rising and falling

to think of what I would never say:
"I am rising and I am falling
every second that I spend awake
that you spend
so easily in sleep"

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

refracted light

by: stacy

i don't know if there's a light
at the end of a tunnel.
i've never flirted enough with Death
enough to find out.

but if you see a light,
and you feel its warmth
more than you feel your own body,
just run.

please run the other way
and don't stop, even if your lungs
feel like they're going to explode
because you can't leave me yet.

there are too many words unspoken,
too many smiles unexchanged,
too many secrets unburied,
to many inhales unused.

and i'll break every mirror
in this house, in hopes of snatching
every year of bad luck
for all of eternity

so that none can come your way.
i've been meaning to break
a few mirrors anyways,
so i could try and refract that light.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

A Recent Bought of Insomnia

by: Stacy

number one

Napoleon conquered
rivers and fields,
mountains and towns.

Columbus traveled,
though centuries apart,
so we could stand on mutual ground.

Religion collected
the seekers and the desperate,
the believers, the hopeful.

Lois and Clarke,
Magellan and mavericks,
gold diggers and geese.

They all travel,
they all search,
but they all fall short,

because though I'm not a bragger,
I do believe I found you.
And in that lies all the victory.



number two

I've never been this terrified.
of losing what I never had,
of fearing the fall, without taking the jump,
of turning cynical without experience.



number three

If we forge miles without stirring,
if we build fortresses with silence,
if we turn Blake's Lambs into Tygers,
or display hatred with confidence,

if this boat we're in should start sinking,
I thought it would be best that you knew
I've never felt closer to Heaven,
than when I was in embrace with you.

Monday, June 11, 2007

the previous haiku didn't cover everything

by Nik

Here we are again on the couch
My feet
Shoes still on, rubber clumping on your wooden table
Feet up head back

Your hand caresses my arm
Your ear pressed against my chest
How many times must I think
This is tearing at my dignity

Once again
You’re hearing my thoughts
Measured like an EKG
This isn’t the ICU baby
So back the fuck off

Philosofuck

by Nik

Your mouth was a cave
And I am sometimes deterred
By stalactites and stalagmites

Though it is the quest of man
The fulfillment of dignity
We see the opening, the entrance, the opportunity
We act on it

The quest of man
So profound a poem

The cave was just scoffing all along

The cave presented
How can man NOT explore
The dreams of treasure, hidden away

Man must consider the dangers
He commits to himself upon entering

But he also commits
To dreams of pleasure and fortune
A reason to bare the steps and steeps

The quest of man
In an open field it doesn’t exist
You present yourself a cave
How can I not enter